Poems

There is an ache in my soul that won't go away I feel that down I can't even pray Friends try to encourage me It does  me no good - I am not listening I don't need a goal I am facing a dark night of the soul Can't stand nothing to do with God Don't want to worship,  read his word or pray Never been this bad before, my friends don't know what to say I feel like my heart has a big big hole Void of all love I am facing a dark night of the soul Don't know how long it will be Before I break away from this darkness and once again feel free Just reading fiction for now, can't stand God's word Don't know why I feel this way It's seems so absurd I am facing a dark night of the soul Don't know how long it will last Become a thing of the past But for now, just let me be Don't try to persuade me I feel so cold, not bold God's word is not for me I am facing a dark night of the soul Copyright Kizzy York aka K. J. O...

The ADHD FB group I knew The wanting to jog in Corby Phase I knew The school you worked at I knew The times he did not show for you I knew The times he didn't show for me I knew The whole kaboodle I knew The Glitter I knew The Baths together I knew The Nails I knew The secret clandestine meetings I knew I know I knew Thing is - he had done this again and again Time after Time I knew it was nothing new If he had lived he would have eventually done it to you I knew The reason his relationships never lasted I always knew You never knew I KNOW this to be true Eternity made sure he could not do this anymore To me, to you, to anyone new Game over - The End I knew and know, but you never got to know Be thankful for small mercies Where no-one lives happily ever after The End Copyright Kizzy York aka K.J.Oakes January 4th, 2018

It's raining in my heart Since the day we had to part You lost your rule over me And I was set free I write poetry with my pen I loved you then I love you still Leaving you was against my will Death is so final So carnal Your death brought me low And made me a widow I keep all mementos They remind me of you The fun times we had And the sad one's too I hope I find you in Heaven The day that I die True love - everlasting No more Goodbyes ! Copyright Kizzy York aka K.J.Oakes  January 2nd, 2018

I wish I could find that someone who devotedly loved I Not already got a wife And vanishes in the blink of an eye I try to sleep,  but it's evading me Tossing and turning till dawn Why does it alway happen to me ? Why do I mourn ? If they were meant to stay Then so it would be Toss and turn all night Till dawn's first light I get up, shower Have a cup of tea I brush my hair in the mirror And who do I see ? The person who devotedly loves Is sitting in front of me But more importantly - what made me see? The Bible still open upon my knee The mirror of his word is all I need Not a fake snake, like Eve once recieved If me and my Bible never part One day God will grant me the desires of my heart.  Copyright - Kizzy York aka K.J. Oakes 15/07/2017

It's horrible being alone Waiting by the phone For a text or a ring But I know I'm just a play- thing Happiness comes from within - they say But I have been busy and counting the day Till you're back again Just 2 brief texts - and again the pain Of no reply I don't see why Or do I ? It's the wife in your life I should have known better Trapped in a fetter Can't see a way out So I just sit here and pout Waiting for a text or a call I have made such a great fall Story of my life When I just want to be someone's wife 27/05/2017 Copyright Kizzy York aka K . J. Oakes

As memories fade We seek a new day I didn't have it made But that does not mean decay These things make us stronger Like a caterpillar from its chrysalis As the days get longer We realize we were made for more than this Mediocre life, lots of strife No longer - no more Life is getting better Maybe something good is in store Copyright Kizzy York aka K J Oakes January  26th - 2017

Alas you are now gone, Someone's brother and some mums son Gone forever - but not from our heart's It truly has torn us all apart I have your picture in a frame I will never forget your name You cross my mind often - And always will God whispers to me - Be still Was so final - our last goodbye I often still cry Oh - how I pray you could have been revived Alas, I was the one that has survived I will try to live with purpose In due course Gain a new life No longer your wife Cancer respects no one And proceeds till it's jobs done It couldn't care less No matter what we confess It's on everyone's mind It's so unkind It is not pure We will pray for a cure Until that day We will continue to pray And continue to pry Till the day that Cancer will die Written for Wayne and a cure for cancer CANCER WILL DIE - Kizzy York aka K.J.Oakes Copyright Jan 19th,  2017