Poems

I still remember the scent Of your embrace I still remember your face The smell of your aftershave  Lingers.......... Your Pheromones  When exercising; The exhilarating scent That made me crave You all the more My sense of smell Distracted me From the sheer hell That was happening  You are now gone But the scent of you lingers.........On.  22/09/2023 Copyright Kizzy York aka K.J.Oakes

I come from my mums fruit cake I come from a long line of strong women I come from Irish Ancestry I come from not wanting to shop anymore I come from Books I come from the Seaside I come from rural areas too I come from Horseriding I come from Midget Gems I come from Bad Mental Health  I come from Good Mental Health Sometimes...... I come from Crisis I come from Dysfunction I come from Curiosity I come from a stampede of elephants I come from hailstones and snow I come from a Summer Breeze I come from Peace

We had an age-old argument : Did drugs inspire great poems ? I said, not on your life On how those drugs you took Affected me as your wife. You said it made you more creative I think that's a lie! You would have more time If you were sober and sound minded Without drugs, you would rhyme! What about all those rock stars? The drugs inspire them Using that as your defense I told you they'd be even better without You caused me great offense Oh, but how I love you Don't want to let you go The drugs have ruined your life I need to turn my back on you The drugs are now your wife!

Late Summer is pending  Soon it will be ending  No more congestion  Just time for reflection  Internet highway clear And Zoom will reappear  No longer held up by 02 And making me feel blue This time next year There will be no fear As I get off the O2 plan  And once again, become a Vodafone Fan ! 

Where is elsewhere? Is it in my minds eye? Is it in a lie ?  Is it having fun at the fair ? Where is elsewhere?  Is it at the beach?  Is it out of reach ?  Do you even care ?  Where is elsewhere?  Is it in the past ?  Will it even last ?  It’s secrets, can I bare ?  Where is elsewhere?  Is it in my feelings ?  Rocking and reeling Over there, or nowhere? Here is elsewhere! Inside of me And you, whoever you might be ?  This is elsewhere! 

Relationship Anxiety Death Anxiety Depression and Anxiety Separation Anxiety Child Trauma Anxiety Inner Child Anxiety Real Anxiety Wake up with Anxiety Go to bed with Anxiety I do not want you as my Partner - Anxiety Dream Anxiety Nightmare Anxiety Life Anxiety Fear of Anxiety No Anxiety Therapist Anxiety Being followed by Anxiety Treading on Anxiety Therapy turns on Anxiety Destroys Anxiety Puts to Death Anxiety So we can walk free from Anxiety

I’ve not got green fingers I look at a plant and it’s dead I’d like to try it as a hobby But, I think I’ll read a book instead I never know whether to water liberally…. Or not? The sun makes it grow, surely - when it is  hot Undernourished or overnourished ? I’m not entirely sure So, I’ll just stick with a book Go for a lay down on the beach I’m more familiar with the seashore. With its vast array of grasses That need no TLC Only kisses from the Ocean To help them grow gracefully  

First time for everything  They say...... Your first love Your heart goes ping It didn't last Feeling like an outcast  Your first alcoholic drink You would not pour It down the sink Your first driving lesson Your very first poem So many firsts I must keep going Your first exam First day of school First time on the internet dating pool First taste of Marmite Did not go down too well The way I reacted  My teacher would tell First tooth grown First embroidery sewn First Pet First House, To Let So many firsts I must keep going First Wedding -  Was not wedded bliss! You hardly had the time to give me a kiss First Pregnancy  Did not go as planned I miscarried The midwife did not let me hold your tiny hand I wanted to keep you But you couldn't be kept First ever period I am a woman now Hormonal, First Row So many firsts I must keep going First time visiting Cambridge  I saw you rowing First time for everything  So they say...... So, I'll just keep going First time swimming An outs

They say I'm a loner I need my privacy  Alone but not lonely Would you like to come -  And read with me? I like to be alone Need distance from my phone Feel the need to read To keep my sanity Else, I will crumble Pray, down on my knees My besetting sin - Don't really want anyone in I like it nice and peaceful  Without such a din So, scoot now Leave me be I'm such a loner Can't you see ? 

Who needs a counselor?  When you've got a cat ?  Therapeutic Therapy of stroking Calms me, de-stresses my nerves As she lays upon them. Suppressing the rageful emotions That storm inside of me Tempering them down Feeling calm, peaceful  Ethereal, surreal  Survived by my survival No counselor this time Just the methodical  Stroking of my cat. Her purrs add to my healing heart. 

You need one who's easier to control! Not one who has a life of her own, You sucked the very life out of me Now I feel so full of glee. I knew you were a Narcissist from Day 1 The Bracelet you bought me The other things you did Forever tagging me on Facebook  My Mental Health is good It will return, Whereas yours as a Narcissist  Will always remain.

Yours was not an overt love Hidden, a covert one I couldn't see where I was going The love bombs seduced me Into thinking you were the one! I've been this way before though,  More overtly But, I know both sorts now, I have a full degree in Narcology  I can see you starting to suck the life out of me, In a totally different way. A new day is dawning I need to forever break this cycle But, don't exactly know how ?  I'll storm the courts of Heaven Maybe the justest judge of all will see me right  If I follow in his footsteps and walk into the light!