Poems

  I’ll always be grateful, For Sidney fixing my TV It wouldn’t play Netflix You see, and all for free.   He came and did the update, It started working fine I’ve got Netflix and my Cat And Sidney round to dine   He fixed my Oven Light too And bought me a Chinese After, we’d watch Netflix and chill, Now I was at ease,   Snuggled on the sofa, We watched a fair few flicks I noticed his hand was wandering Closer to my knicks …….   It went further than I thought I only wanted a kiss, We ended up in bed, I wasn’t expecting this!   There were some Red Flags Of that, I must admit But rather than pay attention I just ignored it.   I know just a little About Narcissistic Personality Disorder I found you out You’re nothing but a Fraudster!   The rumours were true Of that I am sure, I did a bit of investigating Through Clare’s Law   It shocked me, made me feel quite sick,  I thought it through There must be a solution To get rid of this Prick   Idealise, De-value then Discard Went through my mind

  My head slowly lifts watches with baited breath From ashes you rose so different  To the White Swan gliding effortlessly  Up towards the heavenly staircase  Crossing over Prosperity, Jobs and Titles Are worth nothing.  My Chariot  Chugs to a standstill. Cast away, where leaves die I am tired, don’t care about anything  For eons mankind  Has been handled harshly Forbidden to go to the beach. Where else would I like to be ?  Clever men, however you act  towards them Know that the Trinity allows things for a purpose  Nothing is impossible  Writing such form; On the mountains and the rivers that sneak .... Like a snake in that place you so love. 

  When it seems like a loss But it’s really a win You would have dragged me deeper  Deep into sin With no way of escape  Once the abuse would begin Why am I tempted by all the bad men ?  To experience the abuse cycle all over again  But.....  Temptations door has now been locked  And it needs to stay that way Clear all the Obstacles  Testicles - ha ha ! Bollocks I hear myself mutter - Come what may ! I need to look at myself, Worthy!  A Winner -  Whereas, you’re a wolf that looks like a sheep But, I know what’s underneath  That  Fake-ness. that glib superficial Charm You’re really a Sinner And although you don’t know it,  I’ve always been the Winner ! 

  Revolution is in the air Strong women, rise up,  You can do it Narc-free forevermore  Now they’re our Nexes We can now be reckless  No longer bound By a lack of Freedom  Survived, to see another day Weak become strong As we move along And choose to walk away We did it, Women United Narcs, Divided They fall,  While us Women climb Towards the top New Goals, Adventures  We will rise up,  To see a new way of life......  Narc-free forevermore! 

  I smile Cause I know I smile Cause you didn’t  You thought you had power You didn’t, I had I was prepared and armed You were disarmed Wasn’t expecting silence And me not sorting it out Met your sort before  I let you walk out the door  Not going down the Psycho-Path again I smile, 6 weeks in I knew, you didn’t  I had the power I still maintain the Power No matter what I don’t know who you think you are As you’re really not that hot !  

  You didn’t break my heart I have no heart to break Emotions spun fast, too fast  On this wheel called LIFE So much so, Emotions stand still  Timeless, nothingness No more strife Singleness for me has, become a way of life

  You put out the darkness With your multi-coloured light.  Radiating your rainbow like brilliance  Illuminating the Darkness But, casting some shadows still, you light up the darkness  without completely extinguishing it,  A little light to keep us going When the pathway is dark.  Just one more step On the path to enlightenment  The true light can usurp Your brilliance, But .....  you look better Shrouded in Darkness  The Dragon Fly  Shines all the more,  within the shadows  I think I shall keep just a little dqrkness  As I step into the light,  and it’s shadows. 

  Literally, hanging by a thread Thoughts whirl through my head You thought you had me beat In your Spiders Web of Deceit.  Unravelling, Red Flags I didn’t believe your yarn I will wait ...... For someone  With a more common thread One where we are most definitely linked No more lies, or disguises An embroidery, perfectly woven Of strong BOLD colours Of,True Love, Forgiveness  And Reality!  No tangled Love this time! 

  The pressed thistle meant more - Than the Red Roses sent,  Or were they merely Red Flags?  Love-bombing, Gas-lighting,  the list could go on The Thistle,  Smaller, neater, more compact But, sent with love from the heart 

  Be careful in a small town What you say........ The walls have ears on every corner As you go about your day !! He made January a little bit scattered, My mind, all over the place  Now, A clearer conscience  A clearer face No need to get my hair washed During these Covid times With no hairdressers open  It had become a bind Initial lockdown- I went 9 weeks  All due to my disability  2020 was a strange year To which we’ve all had to adhere If it hadn’t been for the lockdown  And my mental state dis-arrayed I do not think I would have fallen For your sweet and charming ways But, Heigh Ho, as Shakespeare would say You live and learn No more to be led astray With your deceitful dance A new stance, and hopefully  Next up A true romance ! 

  I once knew a boy called Josh,  it got on our nerves as he wouldn't wash,  it got on nature's nerves too,  especially when Josh went to the loo. Nature sent Corona Virus to teach Josh and others,  Wash your hands, to stop this virus.  Let's hope Josh and others keep themselves clean,  after the Corona Virus has been,  Nature will be pleased,  and once again we'll all be able to breathe ! 

  The dragon that was slain Myths that were feigned Stories of these abound  And orally get around  ‘Lies breathed through silver’  When one writes without pilver Lewis to Tolkien said Imagination of ones head It’s not really true You haven’t got a clue C.S.Lewis to Tolkien said  When, Tolkien fed ……. Lewis’s imagination With the truest story told Much better, more bold Than those myths of old.  Of a true knight in shining armour  Who redeemed the world As Tolkien spoke,  The tale was unfurled  Lewis thought of all the stories He had been told And the ones he had done Children loved them, Oh such fun ! Rags to riches  All those deaths In defeating a Monster In  those epic quests Romantic Tragedies Joyful Comedies Victory snatched Happily ever after s - matched ‘ No, ‘said Tolkien  ‘They are not lies’ It has survived  As the truest myth ever told This Knight still lives Ancient of days is old This is not a myth It’s the truest story ever told Lewis meditated on his bed Of all that Tolki

  chose you, not him Maybe on a whim I went for the character I thought you had I thought you were not that bad How wrong could I be ?  Soon, I would see ! I meant nothing to you,  And everything to me No more trips will there be For your children, or you What can I do ?  But, I can still sight-see The trips we had planned  They will still happen for me ! My heart will mend At the hand of a friend  Go back to your lazy, BOF life I won’t give you any strife I will still travel, you see But, without you beside me.